Monday, September 28, 2009

KEETHA, YOU ARE THE WINNER!


Keetha, my dear sister in reading, you are the WINNER of the YOU WERE BORN FOR THIS book give-away!

I'm actually thrilled to award a book to this particular person. At the beginning of each month Keetha writes a review of the books she's read in the past month and every month I find at least one book among her choices that I can't wait to get my hands on. So in honor of her equisite taste in books, and because she's the only who left a comment....Keetha wins!

Friday, September 25, 2009

25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let me know that the landlord had accepted my offer. Then another landlord on a second home I'd considered sent me an email and made a very attractive offer.

I don't know what all this static means. After my epiphany in Tahoe, I expected smooth sailing to Colorado. What to do? On the one hand: go to Tahoe for six months and see what happens. On the other hand: I long to get my stuff out of storage and into a home in a community where I have a better than average chance of affording a home, which is Colorado. I really want to settle down in a home surrounded by my own things, which have been in storage forever, not someone else's.


At the moment I'm trying not to read too much into these unexpected developments. I'm still planning on flying out to Colorado next week to look around and then make a decision. I'm also going remain perfectly open to finding and realising the best place for me to be.

Sept. 26th in my email this afternoon, a daily devotion from Today's Daily Word seems particuluarly appropriate to this situation:

Today's Daily Word - Saturday, September 26, 2009

Let Go, Let God

I open to Spirit and follow divine guidance.I have journeyed to a crossroads of opportunity. This is a place for me to pause and reflect upon the road I have been travelling and the choice that lies ahead. I imagine that I have just walked through the desert and have now reached an oasis with refreshing water, a cool breeze and a hammock tied between two shade-giving trees. I have reached a welcome refuge. I experience this kind of an oasis as I let go of personal striving--trying to do it all myself--and let God guide me. A sense of calm washes over me as I release my concerns and trust that God will show me the way. I pause, I listen and I discern the guidance I have been seeking. Following the guidance I receive leads me to my greater good.

"If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit."--Galatians 5:25

25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let me know that the landlord had accepted my offer. Then another landlord on a second home I'd considered sent me an email and made a very attractive offer.

I don't know what all this static means. After my epiphany in Tahoe, I expected smooth sailing to Colorado. What to do? On the one hand: go to Tahoe for six months and see what happens. On the other hand: I long to get my stuff out of storage and into a home in a community where I have a better than average chance of affording a home, which is Colorado. I really want to settle down in a home surrounded by my own things, which have been in storage forever, not someone else's.


At the moment I'm trying not to read too much into these unexpected developments. I'm still planning on flying out to Colorado next week to look around and then make a decision. I'm also going remain perfectly open to finding and realising the best place for me to be.

Sept. 26th in my email this afternoon, a daily devotion from Today's Daily Word seems particuluarly appropriate to this situation:

Today's Daily Word - Saturday, September 26, 2009

Let Go, Let God

I open to Spirit and follow divine guidance.I have journeyed to a crossroads of opportunity. This is a place for me to pause and reflect upon the road I have been travelling and the choice that lies ahead. I imagine that I have just walked through the desert and have now reached an oasis with refreshing water, a cool breeze and a hammock tied between two shade-giving trees. I have reached a welcome refuge. I experience this kind of an oasis as I let go of personal striving--trying to do it all myself--and let God guide me. A sense of calm washes over me as I release my concerns and trust that God will show me the way. I pause, I listen and I discern the guidance I have been seeking. Following the guidance I receive leads me to my greater good.

"If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit."--Galatians 5:25

25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let me know that the landlord had accepted my offer. Then another landlord on a second home I'd considered sent me an email and made a very attractive offer.

I don't know what all this static means. After my epiphany in Tahoe, I expected smooth sailing to Colorado. What to do? On the one hand: go to Tahoe for six months and see what happens. On the other hand: I long to get my stuff out of storage and into a home in a community where I have a better than average chance of affording a home, which is Colorado. I really want to settle down in a home surrounded by my own things, which have been in storage forever, not someone else's.


At the moment I'm trying not to read too much into these unexpected developments. I'm still planning on flying out to Colorado next week to look around and then make a decision. I'm also going remain perfectly open to finding and realising the best place for me to be.

Sept. 26th in my email this afternoon, a daily devotion from Today's Daily Word seems particuluarly appropriate to this situation:

Today's Daily Word - Saturday, September 26, 2009

Let Go, Let God

I open to Spirit and follow divine guidance.I have journeyed to a crossroads of opportunity. This is a place for me to pause and reflect upon the road I have been travelling and the choice that lies ahead. I imagine that I have just walked through the desert and have now reached an oasis with refreshing water, a cool breeze and a hammock tied between two shade-giving trees. I have reached a welcome refuge. I experience this kind of an oasis as I let go of personal striving--trying to do it all myself--and let God guide me. A sense of calm washes over me as I release my concerns and trust that God will show me the way. I pause, I listen and I discern the guidance I have been seeking. Following the guidance I receive leads me to my greater good.

"If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit."--Galatians 5:25

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

22 September 09


Joy is not geography.


That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."


So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.

22 September 09


Joy is not geography.


That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."


So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.

22 September 09


Joy is not geography.


That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."


So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.

You Were Born For This

Over the past year I've read a lot of self-help books as part of my journey to change the course of my life from reactive to pro-active. Fittingly, 99.9% of these books are about what I can do to help myself, or what others have done to help themselves acheive their dreams. Which is what I was expecting when I received an ARC entitled You Were Born for This by Bruce Wilkerson (compliments of WaterBrook Multnomah Publishing Group).

Doesn't the title alone suggest more of the 'yes, please, all about me!' that I've come to expect of a year of reading through the inspriational / self-improvement genre? That's certainly what I had in mind when I stuffed the book into my carry-on luggage and headed for the airport. Boy, was I in for a big surprise.

You Were Born for This turns the plea of 'help me, Jesus' on its head. Instead, Bruce Wilkerson encourages us to pray / think / do 'help me, Jesus...to help someone else'. He suggests that if we want to see real miracles in our lives, we should partner with God to create miracles in the lives of others. In very practical step-by-step manner he takes us through the process and situations in which we will encounter others we can help. Not surprisingly, we may also find ways to help ourselves, or realise how we are blessed when we bless others.

Because this book had such a surprising and positive impact on my thinking, I'd like to share it with you. I will give away my copy of You Were Born for This to one randomly chosen person.

To enter: Leave a comment below providing one positive act you could do to improve the life of someone else...that doesn't involve money.

Next Monday, September 28th, I will randomly choose a winner and send them the book.

Thank you and I can't wait to hear your ideas!

Here's more information about You Were Born for This:




Summary



His New York Times phenomenon The Prayer of Jabez changed how millions pray. Now Bruce Wilkinson wants to change what they do next. Anyone can do a good deed, but some good works can only happen by a direct intervention from God. Around the world these acts are called miracles—not that even religious people expect to see one any time soon. But what would happen if millions of ordinary people walked out each morning expecting God to deliver a miracle through them to a person in need?



You Were Born for This starts with the dramatic premise that everyone at all times is in need of a miracle, and that God is ready to meet those needs supernaturally through ordinary people who are willing to learn the “protocol of heaven.”



In the straightforward, story-driven, highly motivating style for which he is known, Wilkinson describes how anyone can be a “Delivery Guy” from heaven in such universally significant arenas of life as finances, practical help, relationships, purpose, and spiritual growth.



You Were Born for This will change how readers see their world, and what they expect God can do through them to meet real needs. They will master seven simple tools of service, and come to say with confidence, “I want to deliver a supernatural gift from God to someone in need today—and I expect to!”



Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.
Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.
Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Joe Wilson, Kanye West, and the End of Civility

Somewhere this summer we lost our way. Under the banner of our First Amendment Right to Free Speech, we became boorish, angry, disrespectful fools. Rather than disagree with the policies of our President with either convincing rhetoric or a better plan, we resorted to calling him a socialist, accusing him of being born in another country, of promoting granny-killing death panels. I suppose we can understand the spewing of hate-filled trash talk by Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, and Sarah Palin because they have learned that there is a positive correlation between the stratospheric rise in their ratings and the amount of hate speech they generate. So perhaps we can excuse them because they are simply feeding the monster, the more they scream, the more money they make. If they didn't have an audience their rants would quickly dissipate until they found a line of conversation that was more appealing to their audience.


We have, however, crossed a line in civil discourse when our elected officials on both sides of the aisle use name-calling and the perpetuation of scurrilous rumor as an excuse to accomplish absolutely nothing while they are in office. Case in point: Joe Wilson, in what looked like an alcohol fueled "Watch me, boys!" outburst, yelled out "You Lie!" during President Obama's speech on health care. That he must have felt a coward's shame became evident when he high-tailed it out of the room as soon as the speech was ended. And yes, I do believe Joe Wilson is a coward as well as an ill-mannered boor who by his action does not deserve to represent the people of South Carolina. The irony is that while this outburst initially meant a cool million in the coffers the Democrat opponent he faces in a close upcoming race, it eventually caught traction with his fellow Republicans, boosting his own election war chest and quickly becoming the war cry of protesters in last weekend's march on Washington. Apparently it is now cool to not only call our President a socialist, but also a liar. It makes me long for the day when we showed respect for our leaders, even when we vehemently disagreed with them.


Somewhere along the way, we as a society have silently agreed that it is okay for our public figures to steal the spotlight like jealous children at a birthday party. Rather than wait their turn, or compose a measured reply that is worthy of argument, we allow our television and radio airwaves to be filled with the angry, mindless, babble of the 'look at me' crowd, who excel not in providing answers, but simply in name-calling. Last night we witnessed another such example of thoughtless self-promotion, as Kanye West interrupted Taylor Swift's acceptance speech at the VMA's in a stunning display of poor sportsmanship. Apart from promoting himself by making a spectacle, I wonder at Kanye's real intention.

This type of behavior has nothing to do with free speech, our right to express a dissenting opinion, or being cutting edge. It has everything to do with our growing callousness toward those with whom we share the world's stage, figuratively and literally.


Was Joe Wilson expressing an inarticulate rage at the President's health care plan, showing his disregard for the office of the President of the United States, or angling for attention as he wages a battle for his seat in a close South Carolina race? Should I not be surprised that Kanye West is on Jay Leno's premiere tonight? Was Kanye simply giving us all another reason to tune in? That would be really cynical, wouldn't it.

Friday, September 4, 2009

4 September


I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

4 September


I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

4 September


I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Suicide and the Annihilation of Hope


"Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times"

- Aeschylus

DJ AM died last weekend. At first his death was considered the result of an overdose...according to news reports he'd successfully beaten an addiction to crack for several years until it came roaring back recently after a near death experience and a painful breakup. However, over the course of the past few days it seems that his death may have been intentionally self-inflicted.

Last year, David Foster Wallace, the brilliant author of Infinite Jest hanged himself at home. According to his father, David had battled severe depression for over twenty years. In the past few years his attempts to find an effective treatment that would allow him to manage the depression while continuing to write, had failed. Unable to cope with the pain of his depression, he ended his life.


These reports of suicide among the young and beautiful and indescribably talented always leave me baffled and yes, sad. Having sloshed through the dark muck of depression myself, I understand that the journey sometimes feels endless and the cycle, an endless loop that leaves me unwilling to get out of bed to face another day of disappointment. And while I sometimes despair that I have not made enough of my life, that I have failed to make the most of my talents, I have always held on to to the hope that as with Scarlett, 'tomorrow will be a better day'. I suppose it is manifestation of my competitive spirit, a belief that while what I've already accomplished is never good enough, I want to live another day if only to try again and again to make it better.

Which is why the suicide of such talented individuals is so disturbing. Can't they see all that they have accomplished, how their talent has lifted them above the fray, that they have been given a gift from God that is a blessing to be expanded and explored and shared with the world through their efforts? I can only imagine the debilitating despair that must be so overwhelming as to smother the spark of their creativity or the joy that comes in creating. That pain which tips the scale between the wish to create in favor of the wish to end the suffering.

Because of free will, we have the ability to choose how we will live our lives and ultimately how we will end them. My heart goes out to those standing at the abyss and to their family and friends who undoubtedly feel helpless that they were unable to convey to their loved one that they were loved, that their life was worth living for another day and another. The act of suicide is ultimately the annihilation of hope. My hope is that someday we will find a way to annihilate despair.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

1 September


Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget.
Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently listed at $1.2 mil. Here's a fairly comparable house in Evergreen, Colorado (and one of my favorites in that area) it's listed at $450,000. I don't know how to reconcile that difference.


That's where I am at present. While I mull this over, I look at websites for each location checking out their houses for rent, which is what I will do when I first move, and then buy once I've found a job. I also continue to pack, this morning I finished off two more boxes before leaving for work. This month I will fly out to the chosen location and rent a house and then arrange the move.


As usual, I don't know where I'm going, but I'm moving forward anyway!

1 September


Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget.
Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently listed at $1.2 mil. Here's a fairly comparable house in Evergreen, Colorado (and one of my favorites in that area) it's listed at $450,000. I don't know how to reconcile that difference.


That's where I am at present. While I mull this over, I look at websites for each location checking out their houses for rent, which is what I will do when I first move, and then buy once I've found a job. I also continue to pack, this morning I finished off two more boxes before leaving for work. This month I will fly out to the chosen location and rent a house and then arrange the move.


As usual, I don't know where I'm going, but I'm moving forward anyway!

1 September


Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget.
Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently listed at $1.2 mil. Here's a fairly comparable house in Evergreen, Colorado (and one of my favorites in that area) it's listed at $450,000. I don't know how to reconcile that difference.


That's where I am at present. While I mull this over, I look at websites for each location checking out their houses for rent, which is what I will do when I first move, and then buy once I've found a job. I also continue to pack, this morning I finished off two more boxes before leaving for work. This month I will fly out to the chosen location and rent a house and then arrange the move.


As usual, I don't know where I'm going, but I'm moving forward anyway!